Sexy Back: September 2005
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
「 dancing away 3:06 PM 」



Just listen to Green Day's album all over again... Really love the song "Wake me up when September ends" Got wathc the MTV? It was real sad... This guy enlist for army, she though his girl would be the one that understand him, but turns out his girl did not... The scene ends with teh guy falling down in the battleground and the girl crying in the living room

Wake me up when September Ends -- Green Day

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fas
twake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends

dAniel -- September is ending now.....time to wake up



Tuesday, September 27, 2005
「 dancing away 11:49 PM 」



Just finished watching today, after watching the movie, i have lotsa afterthoughts, maybe i share it with you guys here.... Alexander XIII, the greatest alexander by far, Son of Zeus and Olympias the Soceress. He conquered Asia and Europe, at the age of just 25. His dream was the mixing of races, Babylon being the centre of the world... However, he pushed his dreams too much, that in the end, after he died, the vast empire of his ursurped by his generals....

I admire for chasing his dreams, but to chase for a dream so great, he had lost his life, his beloved male lover, and everything that he loves.... Is that suppose to be the way? Are chasing dreams wrong that God should punish the one that does that? In Alexander case, he was punished by losing everything he owned, he chased his dreams was at the height of his life and eveything came tumbling down, In his course, he betrayed his male loves, slaughtered the subjects that he trusted the most, he become disillusioned.....Is that suppose to be the way things work out...?

Personally, i admire his spirit, he chased his dreams and almost succeded. And in my opinion, he had conquered death in the most abstarct sense, His name lives in people heart and when people look back at Greece and Macdeonia, they will remember Alexander amongst the older gods like Hercules, Achilles.

Abt myself, i am cowardy i guess, my dream is too be myself.... But i know that being myself would hurt a lot of people in the process. But shld i be like Alexander and pursue my dreams, ignoring others in my life, the ones that i love and i care....?? Maybe one day i shall find out the answer, or maybe i will carry it to my grace, i dun noe, but let's see what happens in the future, for now, let's just concentrate on A levels, even closer, Prelims Results, and even closer......Shld i go for movie tml?? I feel so sick......UgHH!

dAniel -- Megas Alexandros

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Monday, September 26, 2005
「 dancing away 11:40 PM 」



So So happy.... Prelims are over!! The results can wait man!! Today went out with my class pple to have lunch. Cartel was as usual up to standard, we all had the Set lunch which only cost 9.50nett. Quite cheap considering the service was quite good. Anyway, XiJie joined as today, it was rather unusual to have him around but he was good company all the same. Ok feel like doing something big, Okay here's the deal... I am going to write a short testimonial of the class people, 3 person a day, Think i start with the sistas, Bel Ivy Jen...

Bel:
Loud, Cheerful girl. Sometimes a bit too loud, abit like what i use to be. Haha, anyway, i think she is a very hardworking girl, really dun see her like so outgoing, she is very efficent with her stuff too... Man, the power of love can sometimes be so great. Really enjoy hanging with her..!

Ivy:
She is very very focused and determined. But that doesn;t make her any less fun to be around with, With her, there is always laughter! In my opinion, i see her as the BEST and i mean the BEST person for someone to set as a role model. Really, she can make CIC so effective and efficient. Not only that, she is in my PW grp, and i think the grp can just die w/o her inputs! Dun be too humble Ivee! I think you deserve all the credit!

Jen:
OMG OMG, dun noe where to begin! I love and hate her at the same time!! She can be the best listener in the whole world, always remembering what you have said to her, but she can also be rather bitchy at time. But i guess that is what i like abt her, Tempermental but Cheerful. I dun regret being her friend man! and Jen sorry for what i put you thru this past 2 years? Bygones??

dANiel -- Think i writing Rol Ron Via next!
The above comments are purely from my heart, none of them is exaggerated....




Hey sorry for the last post... DUn be too concerned about me... Dying has cross and pass me like in a min and it was gone... Now, i have learn to change myself and just making a small step in self-improvement dun be toO concern with the last post, it was only just a transitional thought process.... To show you hoW true i am, i dedicate this song to all of you....Makes me remember the time where i spent with my NCC frenz watching the replacement...Dun care too much abt my last post once again, it was just my mind rambling....

I Will Survive - Gloria Gaynor

at first i was afraid
i was petrified
Kept thinking i could never live without you by my side
But then i spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong
And i grew strong and i learned how to get along

And now your back, from outta space
I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed that stupid lock i should have made you leave your key
If i'd have known for just one second you'd be back to bother me

Go on now go walk out the door
Just turn around now cuz your not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
Did ya think i'd crumble
Did ya think id lay down and die

Oh no i, i will survive
Oh as long as i know how to love i know ill stay alive
Ive got all my life to live ive got all my love to give
Ill survive i will survive hey hey

(music)

It took all the strength i had not to fall apart
And tried so hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart
And i spent oh so many nights just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry, but now i hold my head up high

And you see me..somebody new,
Im not that chained up little person still in love with you
And so you felt like dropping in and just expect me to be free
But now im saving all my loving for someone whos loving me

Go on now go walk out the door
Just turn around now cuz your not welcome anymore
Werent you the one who tried to break me with goodbye
Did ya think id crumble did ya think id lay down and die

Oh no not i
i will survive
Oh as long as i know how to love i know ill stay alive
Ive got all my life to live ive got all my love to give
Ill survive..i will survive ohh

Go on now go
Walk out the door just turn around now cuz your not welcome anymore...

dANiel



Saturday, September 24, 2005
「 dancing away 11:51 PM 」



Recently it has set me thinking... Maybe i shld change my perspective of life...So sick of it... Just wanna go and jump off a buliding... But i am a coward i avoid the pain and try to put on a smile, a laugh to mask my sadness...
I run away from all the pain, this time it is not some ranting... First i shld start with my attitude, now when i look at myself, i am getting sick of it....No wonder people dun like me, dun want me around after talking to me for an hour... Having a plastic surgery is not an option, so i now going to change how i live... No more mugging through day and night ( Sorry guys, i always say i dun mug, but i mug like hell...) I will plan my time casrefully, mugging time shld be fun, not laborious, and definitely not like hell i am experiencing now... this is the first baby step...just hope i can start after Maths S... THIS is not Procrastinating... It just take time to plan out carefully.... Sorry if i wasted more than a miniute of your life....

dAniel -- My life is a beautiful disaster



Friday, September 23, 2005
「 dancing away 9:00 PM 」



Kelly Clarkson - Beautiful Disaster

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as dumb as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right

Oh when I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

His magical myth
As strong as with I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight

Oh cuz I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long

He's soft to the touch
But afraid at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still leaves more than I can take
Oh cuz I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's beautifu
lSuch a beautiful disaster



Saturday, September 10, 2005
「 dancing away 1:40 AM 」



Really stressed out these few days... Cannot cope anymore... VV afraid i flung my studies... wake up always in cold sweat with the image of failing in my head... Going to pray on sunday to calm myself down...GoOd lUcK fEng Quan!!

dAniel -- Good luck guys =)



Tuesday, September 06, 2005
「 dancing away 4:37 PM 」



Untitled - Simple Plan

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight
And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me
Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time
when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading awayI’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me



Saturday, September 03, 2005
「 dancing away 4:16 PM 」



I feel so sick today....Chem...